Pigs in Heaven

Watched "The Myth" yesterday... Pretty good show.... Nice scenery good plot.... All seems fine and great till I entered dreamland....

It was the worst nightmare I had... Most violent one in my life till now..... I am able to vivdly remember the intricate details of the dream.....(even now as I'm writing this) Can you even begin to imagine a murder of a man that is still alive by feeding him to a ferocious shark!!!???? that chewed off his head life a biscuit and having all the contents of his brain spilling out??!!! and this terrible gurgling of noise coming from his throat when his head is being chewed off!!!! Like he was drowing in his own fluids!!!!

Oh my my..... It was as if it happened right before my eyes.... I could not remember the faces very well as they are quite blur but I can be very very sure none of the murderers or the murdered is anyone I know or I should put it in a broader perspective, anyone I was ever acquainted with.

It was said to be an act of your subconsious to have a dreams.... But does that mean I'm getting more violent each day???? *frown* I truly pray and hope that it is not the case because right now I do not see myself being so so violent or want to be for a matter of fact.... Or could it be that I'm going crazy but I don't know it??? *frown* Or could it mean something else more than it seemed to be????? *frown*Coudl it be linked to the violent scenes in "The Myth" but I don't think they are that bloody and scary that it grossed me and gave me nightmares... *frown*

I don't know and don't wish to think about it... I'm starting to freak myself out..... and getting more wrinkles with each frown... Will channel my thoughts to work and school.... at least I would feel so troubled all day and the images will not suddenly wish to re-visit me....

Yea...!!!! My biochemistry exams are over.

Was a little upset last night till this morning. Could not really sleep well 'coz I realised that I have answered some exam questions wrongly and chosen a wrong essay question to write on, which may cost me 10 marks. Anyway, it's over and there's nothing I can do about it except do better for my next module.

Have been spending the last four days consecutively writing notes for my lecture materials and trying hard to keep those small black alphabets and lines in my head. At last I can take a break even though it's only for today. My next module starts this Saturday and I have learnt my lesson. I should start to revise now and then so it will be much easier and I do not have to cramp everything in my head before my exams.

Well.... so much for sulking and complaining. As long as I can pass this module, I should be a cheerful pig. This was after much consolation that I will do well for the exams...*smiles*

My right hand is still having cramps on and off and my thumb is still numbed from all the writing last couple of days. I feel like I've dropped my thumb. I guess I have not written so much for so long... It happens... I think I will be able to feel my thumb soon.....

I've come to a conclusion as to why I am so tired everyday even though I sleep like almost 10hrs a day.

I am lacking in some sort of vitamins... Hence, I must get some vitamins and ginseng tea or something to keep myself awake and alert. Hopefully I can get both vitamins and ginseng in one pill to ease complexity of things.

Perhaps I should start my jogging regime again... so my happy hormones, endorphines get to move a bit in my system and prevent me from getting irritable and bitchy too often....kekekeke....

Yup... That's what I will do... When I get my pay....

*happy* One problem solved...

I am so tired everyday. I feel easily irritated because everyday for the past month I just thought about snuggling into my blanket and sleeping. To have a bonus F.O.C add on, my favourite flu bug is back to bugging me... My nose is blocked and my throat is uncomfortable.... Awww... Terrible start...

I can't wake up in time to take the company's transport so I might as well sleep in a little bit more. Yet I have succumbed to taking a cab everyday just so I can have another 10 more winks. Yes yes... I know.... I can feel my pocket going into flames..... so I intend to really make sure I get myself to wake up no matter how tired I am to take the company bus to work to save some dough for my stormy days. Howver, I'll cut myself some slack and start next monday. (yup... I'm procrastinating. Give me a break. Just this week!!!????)

Now I truly experience how tiring studying and working can be. Life's a bitch.... What can I say.... My brains are juiced almost 4 days a week from 830am -10pm.

Well.... so much for complains.... Now i feel better.... kiaks.....

I shall pull through it and get accustomed to being tired and stressed. Meanwhile... Shall give myself a treat this weekend. Be a sleepaholic and alcoholic???? Laters....

Let me begin by even saying that's its absolutely horrifying to have a fight of the century to break out right behind your cubicle whilst you are trying to do some work.

Yesterday, there was a major argument between my female collegue and my boss. It was a heated shouting match between the sexes. A strong willed girl who does not like to be accused and lose a quarrel and a boss who does not admit his mistakes even though it may be purely due to miscommunication. Can you even begin to imagine? This is not the first but it is definitely the worst.

There I was quietly sitting down in the cubicle going about my own business, trying to finish my analyses on a DNA sequence and sparks flew across my head. I was really thinking whether I should have said something to at least ease up the tension a little. Then again my involvement could just have made things worst. It was like taking a hell ride on a mutilated 'Viking ship', every swing upwards seems to make you acrophobic even though it might be less than half a storey away from the ground. It went on for about an hour so with the rest of my working colleagues holding their breaths silently praying this horrendous experience will come to an end.

The day ended off bad... Having moments of dead silence and final showdown sentences in between like:

"If you do not trust the results I give you then do not ask me to do the job!"
"I did not say that, I just hope you would do something about it and find what's wrong and realise that this is the wrong way of approach to solve a problem. But if you do not want to do this job I will not force you to!"
"I have explained and assured you 90% that I have not done any wrong and if you insist on picking the 10% I have got nothing much to say. You can ask me to leave if you do not trust the results I have given you!"
"You have one month to settle this problem and if it can't be solved I will have no choice but to ask you to leave."

Oh dear dear.... All sentences that will lead to only one ending. I feel sad if she does leave because of purely miscommunication. She is a nice girl just a little head strong that's all. Helpful and witty. Well, I'm doing my part as a colleague trying to troubleshoot the problem together with her. Hopefully it helps and the results today will resolve all these tension....